I feel like stay at home moms get a lot of flack for not working outside of the home. How dare we not have a giant career that we push for. Maybe we’re really really lazy, or maybe we have no ambition.
I refuse to put down working moms. This post is not a SAHM vs. WAHM post. This is just a post about my personal dream job, and why it is my dream job.
To be honest, I feel like I could be very happy with a career and with a higher level of education than I have. I love learning and I have always loved school. I’m the biggest nerd ever, and sometimes I feel like I’d really like to work out of the home, to have a list of big accomplishments and advance in a career.
However, I have to weigh those desires against some other ones, particularly doing what God wants me to do, but also my desire to be home with my kids.
I can’t imagine myself looking back at a list of accomplishments and a career and it being as satisfying to me personally as looking back on all that time with my kids.
I want to be investing into my kids every day. I want to know them better than anybody, to be the ones they run to when they’re hurt, the one who knows the difference between each cry. I want to be the one who disciplines when they need it, and in the way that I feel is the right way to discipline them. I want to hold my sick babies and cuddle them and fix them their favorite comfort foods. I want to tuck them in every afternoon and every night.
I want to teach them to be imaginative. I want to play kitchen with them and dress up. I want to watch them paint and color and draw. I want to read book after book to them until my voice is gone. I want to watch them build forts and play house.
I want to be their teacher. I want to hear them singing all the songs I’ve taught them, I want to be the one that teaches them how to count, how to read. I want to see their eyes light up when they understand a new concept. I want to enjoy seeing them find a topic they’re obsessed with and being unable to pull themselves away.
I want to be their at every sports game. I want to take them to the library and on field trips, and play hooky from school so we can play in the snow.
I want to study the Bible with them. I want to memorize verses together and talk about what they mean, and talk together about what we’re learning in our devotions.
My dream job is being a mother. My dream is to pour myself into my kids and watch them grow and mature and to have no regrets about the time I spent with them. If I don’t have a huge list of accomplishments, that’s ok. If I’ve done my absolute best raising my kids, that is accomplishment enough for me.